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December 29th, 2004

07:54 pm

LUFFYNESS
Okay so, one of my friends is over and Jimmy has his head on her legs, lying on a pillow. Jimmy is my older brother, and my friend has a crush on him. SO CUTE. Omg, she feels so weird about it and I am totally fine. I can picture them going out, actually, because he says she's really fucken cute. AND he said the SWEETEST thing about her! OMFG. She's like REALLY HOT, beautiful face and a PERFECT body: large, perky breasts, tiny waist, round hips and niiice legs. She's really short and pretty skinny. AND HER EYES. BEAUTIFUL. The GREENEST eyes I have EVER seen.
So anyways, most people just look at her boobs.
But I told him that she thinks he's cute, and he said she was, too. AND THEN. He's all, "I don't even KNOW what her body looks like, because whenever I look at her, I can only look into her eyes..." icon_whee.gif I AM SO HAPPY. And so is she, because NOBODY ever just looks at her FACE. So yeh, I really hope that they go out, even if he is two years older...
I don't know, some girls think it's weird when one of their friends has a crush on their brother, but I don't. Not at all. Really, I just hope to see them together someday.

**I did not name the friend on purpose, though I am sure that you guys know who she it, you canNOT tell her that I said this in my journal!
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07:55 pm

Don't cry, little girl...don't cry...

I sat there silently watching the light
reflecting off of the droplets of rain
that were rolling across the window
as the car sped down the lane.

On the outside I was numb and empty,
though on the inside there was a storm.
I only wanted to come inside for a while,
sit by the fire to think and be warm.

But there was nothing I could do,
and not a thing that I could say,
to stop the oncoming flood,
that would bring all into disarray.

All that I want in life is a cure,
something to chase away this empty...
all these unreal thoughts and feelings...
Just take it all away from me!

I'll do anything, sacrifice anything,
just so I can feel once again!
I don't care about the sadness,
I don't care about all the pain!

Someone fill this hole inside of me,
I'll take the cheapest dirt or gravel.
Please do it soon, for I do need,
to see where my heart will travel.

~

Yeh, it's bad, so what??
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07:56 pm

Love, love will tear us apart again...

Love is the most powerful thing,
while hate is only second-best.
You need be only in love with one,
but you should cherish all the rest.

~

Hmm...dunno where that came from. But I sure do think that love is a great and wonderful thing.
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07:57 pm

LUFFYNESS--update

Liz (the green-eyed girl mentioned in an earlier post) is now officially going out with Jim. He asked her today. I approve icon_3nodding.gif
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09:08 pm

I miss you today...

Carry me, far away from this dark place.
Carry me, upon your angel wings.
I swear to you, I won't take too long
to get ready and gather up my things.

I cannot say how sorry I am,
for how I have failed you.
I will try to patch things up again,
there isn't a thing I wouldn't do.

I will set things right again, as I am nostalgic.
I miss the old times, I miss the way we were,
as I sit here looking through this book, I think
of how it makes these feelings inside me stir.

This is the picturebook of my mind,
it reminds me of how we used to be.
I miss how we once danced and laughed...
But now, it is only a vivid memory.

I miss you today, my angel, my saviour.
But I know there is nothing I can do.
I can only sit here and silently break apart,
because it hurts to be away from you...

As I dream of you I realize,
that I want you even more.
I want to see you smile again,
even more than I did before.

I hear footsteps entering the door now,
though I know that I am merely dreaming.
You are gone now, but I can imagine you,
stopping these tears as they're streaming.

Time flies by when you're having fun.
Well, my time with you just didn't last.
I now only have these memories left,
all of these echoes from the past.

I, so determined, hold on with all my might.
I am like a flower drifting upon the sea.
A seamstress now, I try to stitch you to my side,
because I cannot let go of what could be...


~

Feeling I love someone that I've never known...
 I miss somebody today...but I don't know who.
And it hurts, so much.
It's like...I once loved somebody...but I don't know who they are.
They whisper to me of times past, of how much fun we had together, but I've no idea who it is.
Help me...love me...just hold me once again...in your arms...
love...
I miss you today...  icon_cry.gif
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