beth_is_betty (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} beth_is_betty) wrote,@ 2005-01-04 19:22:00 |
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ANGST--Chapter V
I refuse to be loved by you.
I refuse to be rejected by you.
I refuse to be hurt by you.
I refuse to be broken by you.
Don't love me...
But don't reject me.
Don't you DARE hurt me.
Don't break me again...
Love me, so much --
IT HURTS ME.
Reject me, before --
I LOVE YOU TOO.
Hurt me, so much --
IT FEELS GOOD.
Break me, make me --
HATE ME MORE.
I like the love ((so love me))
But the rejection feels good ((hate me))
The hurt is pleasurable ((hurt me))
But I hate myself ((so break me))
Deep dark secrets I love lay within me,
though I try to hide and reject them,
because I do not want to hurt you,
and I do not want you to hate me.
I love myself,
though I reject who I am.
It hurts me so much,
but the hate feels good.
